On This day

I've been defeated and brought down a peg. You see I was suppose to be going to my friends weed-ing on Saturday but I wont be able to go since I am now working nights on Saturday and opening on Sunday and because of this I can go. So there's nothing I can do about that so I will just go make some cash and make it up to them a nother time.

I am going to continue with some more of things that are bothering me. You see there are more non believers that I can at times be a rude person. Today I ran into someone I went to high school with, this person was a complete jerk to me. See this person was good at sports and all that crap. Well where did I see this person? Working at a fast food place. I saw them and talked to them and pritty much told them " You have gone no where in life, your stuck in the same mind set that you were 3 years a go. and I told them that they can just go to hell" I know the way it sound on here doesn't seem cool but trust me the way that It came out of my mouth it sounded cool.

The other day one of my friends from school said something about one of my earlier posts saying how it was directed to my fellow class mate at college this couldn't further from the truth. It was direct to other people that I know. You see El tiro grande if I don't like people in our class I will tell them to their face.

I know some people think that I am real hard on my that I put too much pressure on my self. Maybe I do but there is a reason for this you see I want to be the best at what I do! So I try some times too hard and push my self over the edge where I get stuck and can't keep going, and I have to work even harder to do the job right. That could be one of the many cause why I don't have a girl friend. Its not that I say or do stupid things, I just get very self doubting of my self. One of my friends from school is a ladies man 90% of all girls he talks to he can get their number, me on the other hand 99% of girls turn me down. Maybe I go about it the wrong way or I'm afraid I will screw up and end up screwing up.

Just Understand

Well another day has gone bye and another board day. See today in class one of my friends was saying how I never said his name in a post well
El Tiro Grande
I just said your name there you go shooter.

Well I was just looking through my picture locations and found out the my mom deleted my entire Alberta Picture Sets that makes me really mad. Ok so here goes my rant for the day. People have a had time that I like to do nice things for people its just how I'm, you see when I went to the movies with a friend who is a few years younger then me, my friend saw me there and said " Who is ur little friend there" And I said she is just a friend and I'm doing my good for the day.
Well I goto school on Monday and everyone is making a big deal and I said that I was just being a friend and doing my good deed. Well since people have a hard time understanding why I do good things for people we have to take a step to a phrase I should start using again.

" If your nice to me, I'm nice to you. If your a jerk, an A$$ etc to me then I wont help you in a time of need"

Why do people have such a hard time seeing where I'm coming from. I like getting along with people and doing nice things for them time to time. And it pisses me off that people don't understand why I do it. You know it could be a pride thing, when I do good things I feel good about my self. Maybe if everyone was a little nicer to each other maybe there would be less hate .

MY PAST

See back in the before I was in college I was harassed on a daily basis for 11.5 years and I became a hatefully person I didn't like many people so I leard how to have a though skin and defend my self quickly that's why when people are joking with me I take it so seriously and that's not good I have gotten better but I am still on the defensive.

Oh, why are we so sad?
Are we feeling hurt by their evil lies and all those empty words?

So many years ago, many more than I'dEven care to bear in my mind From the darkest of all places

GETTING OUT

Finally after 1.5 months long i finally get out and do something besides school, work and bowling. I went out with my friend from bowling and say the woest movie I ever saw. The movie Is called The Fog. This movie has so many plot holes and things that didn't make sence and things that happened in the movie like a pick up loosing all the windows and a few sceens later they are back. WHAt the hell.

For how bad the movie was at least i got out of the house and had some fun.

Today i bowled like crap for the first game and brought it back but still over all bowled crapy oh well there is always next week.

That that iam out

The World That I know

I was just listing to some music tonight and i got thinking. So far this year there have been a lot of natural disators around the world and i find it really weird. Some crazy nuts are saying that this is the begining of the end, i on the other hand Blame global warming but thats another story for another time.


I also realized that I have a lot of free time the big reason for this is that i haven't got a $$$$ yet to go out and have fun, but soon enough I will be able to have fun. This is really strange usually i have a lot on my mind and have alot to say but this week i really dont, maybe its all the studing for my damn midtems. SO i need to get a topic to rant on but i am brain dead on what to think of.

Wow i was listing to WWE's OriginCD to day and Booker T has the worst song by far.

WELL I AM OUT OF IDEAS LATER

Stratovarius

I was thinking a few hours ago how long its been since I had a decent girl friend. Don't get me wrong I had girls in Lake Louise but none of them were an emotional relationship and at this point that what I'm looking for someone I can talk to someone who get my craziness someone who gets me. And there might be that person out there and I think that I might have found a person like that but the vibe its not there. Oh well I guess I will keep looking. There is one thing that I hate is girls who "try" to pick up at the nightclubs when there drunk and dress extremely s*utty. Sure if they want to dress like that but it seems that they are trying to put on a show to get guys inersted. And Some guys are like that they want a sl*tty girl and it make me sick. Here is me being my self and it turns people off but I don't care if it does,that who I am! If I can bring just a little but of happiness to someone who is down on their days then I feel good about myself I did my good deed. And some might think that I have a way with the ladies and that not true. To my general knowledge there might be 3 girls I know who have like me right off the bat just as how I am a kind hearted person. What I am trying to say is maybe I need to get off my ass and start trying to get my self a girl friend.
A person who is just as kind,funny,understanding of other people and someone who would have fun and understand some of my crazy ways. Now I am not saying that I am crazy but I have some qualities about me that I do. See I am a very outgoing person and like to make new friends and I really like people liking me for me.


Well This is the end of this round till later on

Being Back

For those of you who know Who I am Good for you. For those of you who don't know who I am get ready to hear some of the most controversial comments ever spoken by me.

First off let me bring you back up to speed. I spent this summer in Lake Louise Alberta and had a blast. You see I was born and raised in Windsor, Ontario, Canada. I have spent my entire life in the general area in the same house for ever. I though that Windsor was an alright town but that soon changed. You see back in November 2004 at my college we had people from Fairmont Hotels coming in and recruiting people to apply for their summer season to work at some of their hotels. So on a chance I put my name in on the last day that I could and hoped for the best chance. About 3 weeks later I had my first of 5 interviews that spanded from November to April. And I found out that I got the job. For months before I even thought about going out west my cousin told me " if you ever get an chance to leave this town do it"
So after i was told that i had the job i slowly started getting ready to move out west. Long story short I loved being out of the Big Dirty W i saw how this town is and it sucks. If it wasnt for my friends being here i would hate it here. You see I was going for 4.5 months and I tought that things would have changed but they haven't really for the most part and it making me some what sick. Being on my own on the other side of the country really changed me. SOme of the things that i like doing back in the day seem dull and boring to me. Some of my friends have not grown up they are still in the same mind frame that they were back before i left and it bad of me to say it but i just cant stand some of them any more.

Now iam not going to say any names but 2 of my friends has been out of a jobs for a year or so and I just don't get it how can some one be jobless for a year and not have a job by now.

I have been back here for about a month and in that time i was able to go job hunting days i wasnt in school and have a few interviews and in 1 months time i have a Job paying 12.50 /hr now its not the best job in the world but its in a neat place THE HILTON. I have been working there for about a week and every one there is so friendly.

Well thats all i feel like writing tonight becuase i dont want to type any more so this is the end of my first of many rants and my personl views

The Origin of the Name

This is a very short post and very simple the name of this one where did the name "The Big Dirty W" come from. A lot of people think that it was me that came up with the name this couldn't be further from the truth then any thing. You see I stole the name off someone else and have been using it ever since I heard windsor called it. It was the fall of 2003 when a great man that i use to work with Ryan Cox and I got to know each other better( after some beers) and i was saying how much this city never changes and he told me thats what happens when you live here in the Big dirty W your whole life.

BOOM right then and there the name clicked and i have been using it ever since. So there i gave credit where it was diserved. now get off my case